i have my freedom, but i don't have much time
huge changes. um. i don't know what to say. everyone is leaving. i am so scared.
i miss keeley.
i miss hannah already. i can't stand it.
i think am moving out, i guess. maybe to portland, maybe down the street. there are so many options. i have a key to rachi's home, if i need it. everything is up in the air. but i know there is not going to be much else left for me here soon.
and i kind of quit my job today. and i hear the voice saying that i shouldnt have but i also hear the voice that is crying and the one that needs change and the one that loves life too much to waste it by getting up at 5 in the morning.
because all at once, two days ago, everything just broke. the shell that was coating my life, it was made up of all my expectations and illusions-it was all shattered. because i thought it had all ended. actually it was maybe just beginning.
and it was bad, but it was great. and it shattered and everyone helped me and then i went hitchiking with rose and aya.
because everything holding me back is gone.
and it could all go so wrong, it could be so hard. im scared it will all be for nothing.
but everything is for something.
and this is the time, if any, to forsake it all for love.
i miss keeley.
i miss hannah already. i can't stand it.
i think am moving out, i guess. maybe to portland, maybe down the street. there are so many options. i have a key to rachi's home, if i need it. everything is up in the air. but i know there is not going to be much else left for me here soon.
and i kind of quit my job today. and i hear the voice saying that i shouldnt have but i also hear the voice that is crying and the one that needs change and the one that loves life too much to waste it by getting up at 5 in the morning.
because all at once, two days ago, everything just broke. the shell that was coating my life, it was made up of all my expectations and illusions-it was all shattered. because i thought it had all ended. actually it was maybe just beginning.
and it was bad, but it was great. and it shattered and everyone helped me and then i went hitchiking with rose and aya.
because everything holding me back is gone.
and it could all go so wrong, it could be so hard. im scared it will all be for nothing.
but everything is for something.
and this is the time, if any, to forsake it all for love.