We all have secrets
I had a pretty intense conversation with a friend the other night. He was telling me that he was moving out and separating from his wife. I knew they had some issues but no clue it was to that point. We ended up talking for about four hours and he told me the whole story and their back story which once I heard that.... Sadly them splitting makes total sense.
People outside this loop will be SHOCKED to hear they split. They(especially her) put up the front that all is well and they are the super cute and happy couple that all want to be.
It hit home with me because I know exactly how she feels. She loved him from day one and he didn't. It is how K and I were. She is fighting for this idea of what she wants them to be. He can't give it to her.
I have a lot of respect for him because he has been totally honest with her, not sleeping with her to lead her on, sleeping on the couch, etc.
I work with her but am much closer with him and I am now in the situation of having to play dumb because she doesn't know I know all I do.
He said something that struck me. He said he's been stuck in relationships his whole life that he didn't always want and had never really felt that earth shattering love. I feel bad because its an amazing feeling. Then I felt a little jealous because its been a rough time for me with my love choices and I wonder what it would be like to not feel that pain when it is lost.