*shakes head and sighs* oy vey....ufta....
ok so i like lists so here are some! lol! and my comments w/em!
ok so i've heard a few things "through the grapevine" (i.e. TSP) and here's what i've heard....
1) That Alex got an LJ! right on to you buddy!
2) That Kara came back to LJ! come on honey! don't give in! if you really think you're addicted to it then don't do it! but it is your choice! and TSP said that everyone is addicted to LJ.....so on Monday i decided to not even turn on my computer until the weekend....(which is today...in my mind) and so i think i might decide to only get online/turn on my computer/look at LJ once a week....and that might be Friday or Saturday...i haven't decided which yet.....if nothing else i won't get on LJ except once a week cuz i might get bored and turn on my computer.....but most of you see me and if you don't you still have other ways of keeping in touch! so just do that if it's really important (but nobody ever comes to me w/important stuff so it's all good).....
3) A whole bunch of things about Kara and "Scott".....(not from TSP....and i'll get to a comment(s) about that later...........)
and i don't really have much else so i'm gonna start a new list! lol!
What's new w/me....(yea i'm selfish like that! so deal! lol!) ok so here goes.....
1) Monday and Tuesday were the "company meetings"! they were pretty cool and fun!
2) Wednesday was rehearsal and i got in trouble cuz i wasn't home before my parents and they didn't know where i was cuz i decided to stay a lil longer afterwards....but before that (before rehearsal) TSP, AmandaLynn, Ali, and Mandi all went to Baskin Robins and then Tyler showed up! lol! it was pretty cool!
3) Thursday didn't have any rehearsal but i didn't really wanna go home so i called and asked if i could hang out w/Kara and Kristina and so i did! lol! it was awesome! let me tell you! you guys thought that the Drama Party was awesome (well it was totally awesome) but i was just sitting watching them just jam out (like they talk about doing) and dude it was so cool! i love watching people play instruments! especially guitar! lol! it was totally cool! but i did kinda feel like i was intruding on Kara and Kristina time......so yea......
4) Friday (today).....well....there was rehearsal.....but it was later.....so i watched Kara jam out w/"Scott" and it was really cool cuz before 4th today he just randomly came up and gave me a hug! it was awesome! lol! cuz yesterday he walked up and i asked for a hug and then he gave TSP one 1st so i was "upset" and then i made him give me 2 hugs! lol! it was great! he just gives really good hugs! ok and today i swear i just about melted! ok.....he plays the guitar.....he cooks (well might i add).....and he knows a different language...(even though it's not always considered a different language! lol!).......
(the rest really isn't about the week just about my thoughts in general.....)
5) i'm kinda confused though (like my lil froggy)......and yes it's about "Scott".....cuz i like him too......but i'm definitely not gonna try anything cuz of Kara of course! but still....it's hard....i keep waiting for it to fit the pattern of the rest of this "cycle" that i go through.......i crush really hard on someone.....then i get over that (when i finally accept that it's never gonna happen) then i don't really crush on anyone at all then i have small crushes then i crush hard on someone (again).....and i'm just kinda waiting to get over "Scott" right now.....for Kara......i want him to be w/Kara......i can see them together! the problem is i can see how everyone else fits w/someone....but i don't fit w/anyone.......so yea.....
6) well i just lost solitare for the 1st time since i've been playing it today! lol!
7) (lucky #7) and i keep listening to a certain song....and i just wanna cry cuz i don't have anyone that the song is about and i feel alone and i really dunno! ..... maybe i'm just emotional..... ok well i know i'm a lil over emotion right now (for at least the next week) but yea......
ok....well i guess that's it...... sorry.....
P.S.
Kara i love you and i'd never ever do anything to hurt you! just wanted you to know that! but i'm still gonna keep giving him hugs cuz he gives really good hugs! lol!