i hurt inside and out!
things just aren't getting better! i feel like i'm unloved and unwanted! i keep seeing how awful i am! i feel like no one loves me! despite what my friends keep saying....it doens't help! and i know all my friends love me! b/c if you all didn't then you wouldn't all be trying to help me! thank you! but it's not the type of "love" i mean! but i've just decided that i don't care anymore! i'm gonna do whatever the hell i want! i apologize now if i do anything to upset you! but i need things to be about me for a while! so i'm gonna do what i feel like! and not really try to do things for anyone else! i'm done trying! i'm done trying to be nice! i'm done giving! b/c i give my love and i try for people! but i always end up getting screwed over in the end! so why? why should i try anymore if i'm just gonna get screwed over? so i'm not gonna anymore! for a while at least! i'm just gonna do and say and act however i want! and if anyone doesn't like it well then tough for them! cuz i really don't care anymore! i'm sick and tired of giving and giving and eventually i have nothing more to give! because i try and i try and i just get screwed over! so yea!