should I stay or go?
Matt has this crazy affect on me.... one moment I know that Matt and I should not see each other anymore because we are just torturing ourselves by the inevitable distance and Matt's demanding job which prevents him from being the type of boyfriend I want and deserve.. But at the same time it is TORTURE to know that Matt is back at the coast and I COULD be with him right now in the present.
He told me that my door was always open for me and that if I ever find myself on the coast that he wants to see me, and he knows that it is impossible for us to just be friends considering the tremendous amount of chemistry we have together.
Should I stay in Bakersfield and wish that I was with Matt? Or should I go to the coast knowing that I can never have what I want and further torture myself?
I have a job interview in South Lake Tahoe Dec. 8th. I really would love this job since I think Tahoe sounds like a great place to live. But it def. makes any chance of anything between Matt and I nearly impossible. But, even if I lived in SLO Matt is gone so often it would be long distance half the time anyways.
I seem to get attached to unavailable men? Why is this?
He told me that my door was always open for me and that if I ever find myself on the coast that he wants to see me, and he knows that it is impossible for us to just be friends considering the tremendous amount of chemistry we have together.
Should I stay in Bakersfield and wish that I was with Matt? Or should I go to the coast knowing that I can never have what I want and further torture myself?
I have a job interview in South Lake Tahoe Dec. 8th. I really would love this job since I think Tahoe sounds like a great place to live. But it def. makes any chance of anything between Matt and I nearly impossible. But, even if I lived in SLO Matt is gone so often it would be long distance half the time anyways.
I seem to get attached to unavailable men? Why is this?