today
woke up at 6 AM even though i went to bed at 2
searched for coffee drinking awake friend
friend found...lucky
coffee, crying, talking, more coffee
bright eyes
wii games
use of school lab to print 40 page critical article i have to read
called into work early
trip to ex-boyfriend's while he's in class
retrieval of personal belongings from recent ex-boyfriend's, check
heartfelt goodbye with ex's dog...no go...she was not in the cuddly sweet mood
crying and hugging ex-boyfriend's roommate
hauling my shit back into my house
feeling lost
and hopeless
and confused
and i don't know how to break free of the cycle
so i called for an appointment with a conselor
because it's what i need to do
and probably should have long ago
grant me the strength to accept the things i cannot change
PLZ
searched for coffee drinking awake friend
friend found...lucky
coffee, crying, talking, more coffee
bright eyes
wii games
use of school lab to print 40 page critical article i have to read
called into work early
trip to ex-boyfriend's while he's in class
retrieval of personal belongings from recent ex-boyfriend's, check
heartfelt goodbye with ex's dog...no go...she was not in the cuddly sweet mood
crying and hugging ex-boyfriend's roommate
hauling my shit back into my house
feeling lost
and hopeless
and confused
and i don't know how to break free of the cycle
so i called for an appointment with a conselor
because it's what i need to do
and probably should have long ago
grant me the strength to accept the things i cannot change
PLZ