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"there is always one person you love who becomes the definition. it usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. this is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. this is because the individual who emobodies your personal definition of love doesn't exist. the person is real, and the feelings are real - but you create the context. and context is everything. the person who defines your understanding of love is not inerently different than anyone else, and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. but that person still wins. they win, and you lose. because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."