2011
All in all 2011 was a pretty horrendous year for me. It was like a series of unfortunate events that started unfolding in March and then continued on a downward spiral all the way to September, when things finally started to look less bleak.
The thing with horrible years though is that you get to do a lot of personal growth while you wade through whatever is left of your life and/or soul, and that's mostly a good thing. At least it was a good thing for me because I got to focus on myself and I also grew slightly bitter and less nice and that, that is a really, really good thing for me.
Mostly I finally understood that I cannot (and no longer will) live to make others happy at the expense of my own happiness. I've learned to voice my opinion, and that's another thing I will continue to do.
I've let go of a lot of things this year and I feel that I've grown into myself, know myself a lot better, and can handle life a lot better as a result. Maybe this was supposed to be my year to crash and burn, who knows?
So despite the fact that I'd call this year "That Horrible Year I Don't Ever Want To Repeat EVER", I think it's done a lot of good for me in the long run. Also, I HAVE done some great, amazing things this year, I've met some amazing people and, most importantly, I got to see some wonderful people again.
Here are some of the cool things I did:
- flew to Canada twice, meeting up with great, amazing people, all of which I've missed SO incredibly much
- flew to Iceland, which I still can't put into words how amazing that was (Though if you've talked to me in person since then, you probably have a pretty good idea exactly how amazing I thought Iceland was)
- wrote a book
I wrote a book. I WROTE A BOOK! I WROTE A BOOK! I have learned so very, very much from this experience it's not even funny. NaNoWriMo has truly changed my life because it challenged me in a way that I've never been challenged before. My goal was to finish and I know now that I probably would've never forgiven myself if I hadn't. This was more important to me than anything else this year and I made it. I pushed through it and it was an amazing experience.
I'm not setting any resolutions for 2012, there's so much I have to do this coming year, so many things I have to think about that I don't really need resolutions. I know what I want (mostly) and I'll work towards achieving that.
Tonight though, I will eat and drink and introduce some of my amazing straight friends to The L Word until the ball drops. I hope all of you have a wonderful New Year's Eve and a great start to the new year!
The thing with horrible years though is that you get to do a lot of personal growth while you wade through whatever is left of your life and/or soul, and that's mostly a good thing. At least it was a good thing for me because I got to focus on myself and I also grew slightly bitter and less nice and that, that is a really, really good thing for me.
Mostly I finally understood that I cannot (and no longer will) live to make others happy at the expense of my own happiness. I've learned to voice my opinion, and that's another thing I will continue to do.
I've let go of a lot of things this year and I feel that I've grown into myself, know myself a lot better, and can handle life a lot better as a result. Maybe this was supposed to be my year to crash and burn, who knows?
So despite the fact that I'd call this year "That Horrible Year I Don't Ever Want To Repeat EVER", I think it's done a lot of good for me in the long run. Also, I HAVE done some great, amazing things this year, I've met some amazing people and, most importantly, I got to see some wonderful people again.
Here are some of the cool things I did:
- flew to Canada twice, meeting up with great, amazing people, all of which I've missed SO incredibly much
- flew to Iceland, which I still can't put into words how amazing that was (Though if you've talked to me in person since then, you probably have a pretty good idea exactly how amazing I thought Iceland was)
- wrote a book
I wrote a book. I WROTE A BOOK! I WROTE A BOOK! I have learned so very, very much from this experience it's not even funny. NaNoWriMo has truly changed my life because it challenged me in a way that I've never been challenged before. My goal was to finish and I know now that I probably would've never forgiven myself if I hadn't. This was more important to me than anything else this year and I made it. I pushed through it and it was an amazing experience.
I'm not setting any resolutions for 2012, there's so much I have to do this coming year, so many things I have to think about that I don't really need resolutions. I know what I want (mostly) and I'll work towards achieving that.
Tonight though, I will eat and drink and introduce some of my amazing straight friends to The L Word until the ball drops. I hope all of you have a wonderful New Year's Eve and a great start to the new year!