Meh...the status of things...
So...there's been this quality of mine...I've had for years...not by choice or anything...and...it works for me in many positive ways...but...it's always let me down in the area I hoped it would succeed.
I think I have to...change that for a moment if I want things to happen...and then...once I've got my foot in the door...I can go back to being how I am...
It's like this:
two ways to get into a cold pool...
1. Go in slowly...bit by bit to become used to it...
2. Jump right in...
with the first way...it's...careful...you can't really go wrong...but at the same time...by the time you've got your whole body in...you might have already missed out on the fun...
with the second way...you could jump in...and freeze...and have to immidiately jump out...perhaps not to jump in again...or...jump in...and get right to the fun...
I've always gone in carefully...and...I think...I have to start jumping in...
Meh...
It's annoying though...because...for some of life's challenges...it takes confidence to proceed...but...it's from passing those challenges that we gain the confidence...
so...what are you supposed to do that first time?...when you don't have any history of success from which to feed off of...
I keep dipping my feet in...becoming afraid...and backing out...
yeah...I don't know what I'm going to do...
I just...don't want to change anything for the worse...and...nothing can reassure me that I won't...and...with most things...life doesn't ever give you 100 percent certainty...so...the only choice is to jump in...or to not jump in...
don't even have the option of going in carefully...
GAH!...
I despise how I've turned out sometimes...
I think I have to...change that for a moment if I want things to happen...and then...once I've got my foot in the door...I can go back to being how I am...
It's like this:
two ways to get into a cold pool...
1. Go in slowly...bit by bit to become used to it...
2. Jump right in...
with the first way...it's...careful...you can't really go wrong...but at the same time...by the time you've got your whole body in...you might have already missed out on the fun...
with the second way...you could jump in...and freeze...and have to immidiately jump out...perhaps not to jump in again...or...jump in...and get right to the fun...
I've always gone in carefully...and...I think...I have to start jumping in...
Meh...
It's annoying though...because...for some of life's challenges...it takes confidence to proceed...but...it's from passing those challenges that we gain the confidence...
so...what are you supposed to do that first time?...when you don't have any history of success from which to feed off of...
I keep dipping my feet in...becoming afraid...and backing out...
yeah...I don't know what I'm going to do...
I just...don't want to change anything for the worse...and...nothing can reassure me that I won't...and...with most things...life doesn't ever give you 100 percent certainty...so...the only choice is to jump in...or to not jump in...
don't even have the option of going in carefully...
GAH!...
I despise how I've turned out sometimes...