can you say drowning?
So tonight I have to edit chapter 2, my introduction, and write a conclusion - which means I have to re-read the entire thing. Why do I do this to myself?
Tomorrow, I have to drop off the draft of chapter 2/intro/conclusion - and pick up my first set of letters of rec. Then I have to get my shit together and apply at a million CCs. And consider my options if I don't get any of these jobs. I need to look into the writing centers, can I work there if I'm not a student? I know I can work at the tutoring center at FC. Hmm have to look into that.
Then it's back to my statement of puporse. The draft I thought sucked - my prof liked (it needs work but he liked it). Of course I wrote something entierly different, so I need to send that to him too. Somehow I think I'll be missing McHub night. I doubt I can get all the editing done there, especially with the cold. But damnit I want to hang out with my friends!! grrr. Boo on me for not working on this shit sooner.
*So tonight, editing
*maybe exploring jobs
*tomorrow sending out apps for jobs and looking into other options.
*Final edits of chapter 1 & 3
*Definetly going out to the McHub on friday! Someone come and hang out with me! Otherwise I'll be sitting around alone reading Tolkien on a friday night! I used to be cool, really I did.
I think---- no I know I'm freaking out. I can't be graduating, but I am. I have to get a job, get my phd apps in, return library books, and figure out what happened to all the floor space in my apartment. I'm overwhelemed, and underwhelmed (graduating doesn't feel real yet, finishing my project doesn't feel real) - It's like I'm in some crazy limbo and I'm drowning in a million uncertainties. What if I don't get in? What if I can't find/get a job? Also I missed a call (long story, my cell went crazy) and it was from S-C - so Mick says that could be a good sign (if they call - he says they don't call and to reject you). Anyway I called back and left a message explaining my phone is crazy - but no call back. Of couse it could have been Christina calling me from work. Grr I hate not knowing stuff. I just want to know if I'm getting the job, if I'm getting into a PhD program - then I can make plans again. I still have to figure out my plans for NM (I'm soo going to that conference)... Fuck I have to edit that paper for Acacia too! /freak-out
Tomorrow, I have to drop off the draft of chapter 2/intro/conclusion - and pick up my first set of letters of rec. Then I have to get my shit together and apply at a million CCs. And consider my options if I don't get any of these jobs. I need to look into the writing centers, can I work there if I'm not a student? I know I can work at the tutoring center at FC. Hmm have to look into that.
Then it's back to my statement of puporse. The draft I thought sucked - my prof liked (it needs work but he liked it). Of course I wrote something entierly different, so I need to send that to him too. Somehow I think I'll be missing McHub night. I doubt I can get all the editing done there, especially with the cold. But damnit I want to hang out with my friends!! grrr. Boo on me for not working on this shit sooner.
*So tonight, editing
*maybe exploring jobs
*tomorrow sending out apps for jobs and looking into other options.
*Final edits of chapter 1 & 3
*Definetly going out to the McHub on friday! Someone come and hang out with me! Otherwise I'll be sitting around alone reading Tolkien on a friday night! I used to be cool, really I did.
I think---- no I know I'm freaking out. I can't be graduating, but I am. I have to get a job, get my phd apps in, return library books, and figure out what happened to all the floor space in my apartment. I'm overwhelemed, and underwhelmed (graduating doesn't feel real yet, finishing my project doesn't feel real) - It's like I'm in some crazy limbo and I'm drowning in a million uncertainties. What if I don't get in? What if I can't find/get a job? Also I missed a call (long story, my cell went crazy) and it was from S-C - so Mick says that could be a good sign (if they call - he says they don't call and to reject you). Anyway I called back and left a message explaining my phone is crazy - but no call back. Of couse it could have been Christina calling me from work. Grr I hate not knowing stuff. I just want to know if I'm getting the job, if I'm getting into a PhD program - then I can make plans again. I still have to figure out my plans for NM (I'm soo going to that conference)... Fuck I have to edit that paper for Acacia too! /freak-out