There was a long time ago\But it seems like yesterday\When all I wanted was you
I don't have any clue what I'm doing. In the end, something stupid is probably going to happen, everything's going to go to Hell, and I'm going to be left alone and miserable, as always. I've finally convinced myself that I have no feelings for ONE person, but then it all falls back to HER. Along with not knowing what I'm currently doing, I have no idea what I'm GOING to do, and it's fairly frustrating. I have no idea why I can call everything that's going to happen in other relationships, I can tell what HAS happened, the feelings that are being felt, but when it comes to myself, I'm as clueless as ever. I'm so sick of feeling alone, but I find it hard to trust anyone except a rare few, I'm sick of certain people, who no matter what you do, try to antagonise things, start shit for no apparent reason, and completely reject any attempts at restoring anything that may be left of a friendship. I know I should just let go, but for some damned reason, I can't. I don't know why. Like I said, I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.
College is coming, and if this "whatever" in the world isn't over by the end of those 4 years, I'm going to be fighting in Iraq, Iran, or whoever else decides to piss us off.
Right now, I feel like I need a girlfriend. Someone to commiserate, sympathise, empathise. Someone who will always be there for me. Funny how it seems like none of my girlfriends have ever been there for me. I need to be loved.
Shit.
"And you can take off your disguise
Cause I can see the truth that's hidden
Behind your eyes
And all those words that you don't say
Just mean less and less each day
You can't make me shed a tear
I think about tomorrow
Another day of sorrow
But I don't think that I'll be here"
College is coming, and if this "whatever" in the world isn't over by the end of those 4 years, I'm going to be fighting in Iraq, Iran, or whoever else decides to piss us off.
Right now, I feel like I need a girlfriend. Someone to commiserate, sympathise, empathise. Someone who will always be there for me. Funny how it seems like none of my girlfriends have ever been there for me. I need to be loved.
Shit.
"And you can take off your disguise
Cause I can see the truth that's hidden
Behind your eyes
And all those words that you don't say
Just mean less and less each day
You can't make me shed a tear
I think about tomorrow
Another day of sorrow
But I don't think that I'll be here"