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[ardently_alive]

My eyes are open, staring
My spirit's bleeding to death
I look fine on the outside
But i'm really a mess
All this pain that i'm wearing
A cloak of endless regret
I feel that i must confide
That i have to confess

I don't want to live this life forever
I don't want to be locked up in my silence, no

What have i done to myself this time?
I don't know if i'll ever be fine again
The past is looming over my head
Giving me all these tears that i shed
Why can't i get past all that i've done?
And find my way to the one that loves me so....

Liiving life is so painful
I want to finally have peace
I can never imagine
What they see in me.
I hang my head feeling shameful
Can my mistakes ever cease?
I can never escape my sin
And live a life that's free

I don't want it to end this way
I don't want to hurt you all that much, no no no no

What have i done to myself this time
I don't know if i'll ever be fine again
The past is looming over my head
Giving me all these tears that i shed
Why can't i get past all that i've done
And find my way to the one that loves me so.....

God be with me now
This is my last chance
I don't want to slip
But it's coming so close....

What have i done to myself?
What have i done to the people around me?
Putting my faith on the shelf
Getting away from all i should be
Why do i do this to you?
Why do i make you cry all those tears?
Tell me what should i do?
How do i get past all of my fears...