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My thoughts keep returning to one person. Everything seems to surround him these days. and for some reason, now more than anything I am hurting with everything that happened. I messed up, entirely; I faulted. I took all feeling for granted, I acted too impulsively, logic and reason directed me and I failed to credit the emotions that mattered most. I miss him like I've never missed anyone or anything before. When he said he'd move to Florida I wanted it to happen so badly. I wanted to see him and be with him, but I was scared. I didn't want to be with him and then fuck it up again, putting him through everything all over again. I care for him too much to have risked that.
Now he's getting married to someone I've never even met. He has a life I know nothing of, he has a life vacant of everything we used to be. He's getting married, James Gitchell is getting married.
Now he's getting married to someone I've never even met. He has a life I know nothing of, he has a life vacant of everything we used to be. He's getting married, James Gitchell is getting married.