Seeing Sideways: Week Six
As always, these are just some random thoughts I wrote down during class.
Poetry as an outlet--
I must have been a lot more depressed in high school than I realized. I wrote a shit ton of poetry in high school, most of which was Cutty McSlitwrist worthy.
I think my issues this semester stme from:
The two classes I'm taking where I am bored every class because, to date, I already knew pretty much everything
Being tired of and frustrated with being outside of my comfort zone (AKA away from home) so often during the week
I am a serious homebody. I would rather be at home, where all of my stuff is and all of my cats are and I can be myself as much as I want, than anywhere else in the world. And I get seriously weary, seriously quickly, of having to deal with people. I don't really like people for the most part. I'd much rather be around people with whom I've talked enough that there's some familiarity (like y'all from class) than total strangers, who are, in my experience, largely stupid and annoying.
Moving on....
My philosophy has always been to get done what I need to do so that it doesn't intrude on what I want to do.
Other thoughts....
How do I rectify what I WANT (and actually need) to do with what I NEED to do?
I'm stuck because of money. I need money to live, first off, but I also need to pay off my student loans. Ergo, I need my stupid piece of paper to survive. If I could pay that shit off with sewing, I would, but I'm pessimistic about if I could actually do that. The stupid piece of paper would also help me to acquire capital to finance my sewing. But I'm not really sure I want to do web design professionally anymore, except for when it comes to promoting my own company.
Jumping off the cliff can be rewarding. If I didn't have the money stopping me....would I jump off the cliff?
Poetry as an outlet--
I must have been a lot more depressed in high school than I realized. I wrote a shit ton of poetry in high school, most of which was Cutty McSlitwrist worthy.
I think my issues this semester stme from:
The two classes I'm taking where I am bored every class because, to date, I already knew pretty much everything
Being tired of and frustrated with being outside of my comfort zone (AKA away from home) so often during the week
I am a serious homebody. I would rather be at home, where all of my stuff is and all of my cats are and I can be myself as much as I want, than anywhere else in the world. And I get seriously weary, seriously quickly, of having to deal with people. I don't really like people for the most part. I'd much rather be around people with whom I've talked enough that there's some familiarity (like y'all from class) than total strangers, who are, in my experience, largely stupid and annoying.
Moving on....
My philosophy has always been to get done what I need to do so that it doesn't intrude on what I want to do.
Other thoughts....
How do I rectify what I WANT (and actually need) to do with what I NEED to do?
I'm stuck because of money. I need money to live, first off, but I also need to pay off my student loans. Ergo, I need my stupid piece of paper to survive. If I could pay that shit off with sewing, I would, but I'm pessimistic about if I could actually do that. The stupid piece of paper would also help me to acquire capital to finance my sewing. But I'm not really sure I want to do web design professionally anymore, except for when it comes to promoting my own company.
Jumping off the cliff can be rewarding. If I didn't have the money stopping me....would I jump off the cliff?