Moving on isn't nearly as easy as some make it out to be
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I know I don't post often but it's about time I suppose. Well yesterday was painful. I contacted my ex, she and I have been having off and on conversations. The day previous I had gone to have coffee with fox and she and her sig-o were there. Well I walked past paying no mind, it was busy and really not my place to stay and chat, besides fox really didn't have alot of time. Instead of just ignoring me she gets up and leaves in a huff. The rest of her party proceed to give me death looks like I did something on purpose. Needless to say this upset me, and fox and I left. Well I got an appology e-mail the next day. It was then that I realized I will never really be able to be friends. I was hoping someday she would be done with her sig-O, whom I despise, and we could be friends. However I was using that as an excuse to stop myself from moving on. So I took the plunge. I called her and said we are never to talk, we should just ignore each other and if we have to speak it should be about the few remaining items of business we have. I was shocked as to how much this hurt. It was the last string. Though empowering in it's own right it hurt immensely. On another note I've had a few people say things to the effect of "I thought you'd be over this by now". To answer this NO I'M NOT. You don't forget 8 years of your life, you don't forget being betrayed by someone you truly trusted. I have trust issues anyways and the worst thing imaginable that could have happened did. So, no I'm not over it, it's going to take a long time. I'm not mad, I would just ask that you don't say anything like that to me. I was seriously hurt by her and it's going to take me alot of time to heal, this is my first real heartbreak. Forgive me if I sound like a broken record sometimes. I'll get over this I will it will just take time. Change has never been easy for me.
Littlest Viking
I know I don't post often but it's about time I suppose. Well yesterday was painful. I contacted my ex, she and I have been having off and on conversations. The day previous I had gone to have coffee with fox and she and her sig-o were there. Well I walked past paying no mind, it was busy and really not my place to stay and chat, besides fox really didn't have alot of time. Instead of just ignoring me she gets up and leaves in a huff. The rest of her party proceed to give me death looks like I did something on purpose. Needless to say this upset me, and fox and I left. Well I got an appology e-mail the next day. It was then that I realized I will never really be able to be friends. I was hoping someday she would be done with her sig-O, whom I despise, and we could be friends. However I was using that as an excuse to stop myself from moving on. So I took the plunge. I called her and said we are never to talk, we should just ignore each other and if we have to speak it should be about the few remaining items of business we have. I was shocked as to how much this hurt. It was the last string. Though empowering in it's own right it hurt immensely. On another note I've had a few people say things to the effect of "I thought you'd be over this by now". To answer this NO I'M NOT. You don't forget 8 years of your life, you don't forget being betrayed by someone you truly trusted. I have trust issues anyways and the worst thing imaginable that could have happened did. So, no I'm not over it, it's going to take a long time. I'm not mad, I would just ask that you don't say anything like that to me. I was seriously hurt by her and it's going to take me alot of time to heal, this is my first real heartbreak. Forgive me if I sound like a broken record sometimes. I'll get over this I will it will just take time. Change has never been easy for me.
Littlest Viking