so here's the dish...
boyfriend fucked up. big time. long story short, im supposed to be singing in a show with him all summer on a cruise ship. it's a dream gig...working 1 day a week, making OBSCENE money, our own cabins..yadda yadda...anyway...so he is already on the ship and last night he got majorly drunk and was playing around with one of the girl crew memebers...they were joking around like kissing and grabbing each other etc...well he got reported and is now under review for being fired. technically he isnt allowed public displays of affection, and this is grounds enough for being fired. it's stupid and i can't believe that security actually thought he was hooking up with a girl in public...i mean...he is GAY! so he has been crying non stop and begging for forgiveness from the cruise ship powers that be.
i sign on the ship this sunday. i fly to seattle this sunday. im prepared to spend my entire summer with him starting this sunday. and i may be spending it alone.
i have decided that if he is fired i will at the very least spend some time on the boat because they will need a replacement singer...i will stay until they find someone to replace me. and then i will go and spend the summer with him wherever he is. i want to be next to him. i deserve this. we deserve this.
ugh. im so upset. and anxious. please pray that he isn't let go...we have been looking forward to this time together for 6 months. im trying with all my might to not be angry with him. i need more than anything to not judge him and just be here to tell him it's ok. it just really fucks up my life too.
ugh.
ah, ok. i feel better now.
i sign on the ship this sunday. i fly to seattle this sunday. im prepared to spend my entire summer with him starting this sunday. and i may be spending it alone.
i have decided that if he is fired i will at the very least spend some time on the boat because they will need a replacement singer...i will stay until they find someone to replace me. and then i will go and spend the summer with him wherever he is. i want to be next to him. i deserve this. we deserve this.
ugh. im so upset. and anxious. please pray that he isn't let go...we have been looking forward to this time together for 6 months. im trying with all my might to not be angry with him. i need more than anything to not judge him and just be here to tell him it's ok. it just really fucks up my life too.
ugh.
ah, ok. i feel better now.