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Sometimes I wish I could go back and give myself that extra ounce of courage so I could have been me then. I feel like I wasted so much time. My biggest fear is that I won't change and I'll live my life like that. I wish I knew what held me back every time. This deep-rooted pain floods through me with every thought of regret, every wish that I could have at least trusted myself more.
I hate overthinking this and these theories clouding my head that attempt to answer such pointless questions. I wish I could define what I was looking for but it's not an answer or solution I can solve. The "meaning of life" is simple and relative to the person. It lies in where you find meaning. Whether you find life in those around you, the beauty of art, nature, anything. I just wish I could except some things I can't change. I guess I just can't see that far down the road. I hope it's beautiful for all of us.
Strangely enough, I really believe in that gut instinct, a deeper force that pulls us towards what you might call a destiny.
I just want to trust it.