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I am slowly, yet surely going crazy. The anger that builds inside me each day. With each passing incident. I am worried if I don't find a vent and real soon I am going to explode. And it is going to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. I feel like I want to hit something or someone. Make them feel pain. Make them hurt. Then I think to myself about what kind of a person I am. What I have been through, and how little that ever solves. I have been through it all, I don't enjoy making people hurt. I end up hurting more.
So I've been talking to myself a lot more lately. I have come to the conclusion that I am very split inside. Part of me wants one thing and part of me wants another. I tell myself that if I want something bad enough I have to convince myself first. Beyond any doubt about what it is, no second guessing myself. I seem to do that a lot too. I am over confident to compensate for my lack there of.
So I've been talking to myself a lot more lately. I have come to the conclusion that I am very split inside. Part of me wants one thing and part of me wants another. I tell myself that if I want something bad enough I have to convince myself first. Beyond any doubt about what it is, no second guessing myself. I seem to do that a lot too. I am over confident to compensate for my lack there of.