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Saturday night I made a decision not to be stressed about yom kippur the way i was on rosh hashana and most of the time, i kept to it. I also realized that my own ability to have a meaningful yom kippur was not contingent on having time to really get into the davening, or on the davening being inspiring. it was contingent on . . .me.
so I decided i would have a meaningful yom kippur. I decided I would live in these moments and not worry about after the fast, by which I mean I would take advantage of this time to reflect and not worry about food.I don't know that I had meaningful conversations with GOd, but I had some meaningful conversations with myself.
I head the shofar gadol, and I listened for the kol dmama in the garden behind the chapel and then in the woods behind comcast. I promised the universe that I would try to live less inside my own little head and more in other peoples, to see myself as part of something much bigger than me.
so I was ok with the fasting. with the standing. with the walking a couple of miles. with reading sefer yonah loud in a room with bad acoustics adn not using the mike. It all went well. And now I'm gonna try to hold onto that heightened control and awareness and write some thank you's to students and hillel staff who helped out.
so I decided i would have a meaningful yom kippur. I decided I would live in these moments and not worry about after the fast, by which I mean I would take advantage of this time to reflect and not worry about food.I don't know that I had meaningful conversations with GOd, but I had some meaningful conversations with myself.
I head the shofar gadol, and I listened for the kol dmama in the garden behind the chapel and then in the woods behind comcast. I promised the universe that I would try to live less inside my own little head and more in other peoples, to see myself as part of something much bigger than me.
so I was ok with the fasting. with the standing. with the walking a couple of miles. with reading sefer yonah loud in a room with bad acoustics adn not using the mike. It all went well. And now I'm gonna try to hold onto that heightened control and awareness and write some thank you's to students and hillel staff who helped out.