I don't want you to adore me, don't want you to ignore me
Ughhh. I hate how volatile I am as of late.
Garrett treats me so well. I don't know how he has this much patience. I know it's hard to handle me when my moods can change at such short notice. I don't want him to feel he has to walk on eggshells around me; it's not fair to him. I really want to pull myself together, and I'm trying. I've found someone who I have that explosive chemistry with, who also just... gets me. We work so well together and I love it. I don't want to lose him.
I miss Chase a lot. Not like, I miss him romantically. I just miss my friend. The same goes for Jesse D., and Ashley, and Katie. They were all so much a part of me. They still are. I feel like my heart is split between Shenandoah, Middleburg, Susquehanna, Carnegie Mellon, and Altoona... and now even Moon, as I start to put roots down here.
I want to go play Doom 3 now.
Garrett treats me so well. I don't know how he has this much patience. I know it's hard to handle me when my moods can change at such short notice. I don't want him to feel he has to walk on eggshells around me; it's not fair to him. I really want to pull myself together, and I'm trying. I've found someone who I have that explosive chemistry with, who also just... gets me. We work so well together and I love it. I don't want to lose him.
I miss Chase a lot. Not like, I miss him romantically. I just miss my friend. The same goes for Jesse D., and Ashley, and Katie. They were all so much a part of me. They still are. I feel like my heart is split between Shenandoah, Middleburg, Susquehanna, Carnegie Mellon, and Altoona... and now even Moon, as I start to put roots down here.
I want to go play Doom 3 now.