Well well well what a weekend
friday night i had a date. It was pretty much my first ever date. It went alright, but there was nothing there. And even if there was somthing there, from my end, nothing would of come from it. Its being a big chick thing. Personally i dont care. i recently read over my old posts on here. Man i sounded like a tool. I am feeling a lot more positive about things now. Yes i am "big" and i dont care. i know and understand the reasons behind it and i now that i have had my op i can finally do somthing baout it WOOT! so i joined a gym! Yay for me
Saturday was the first aniversary of my dads death. pretty emotional time. It got me thinking baout relationships and i am sick of the "happy being single" aspect. I mena i am happy with my life but i want someone to share it with. One day they say.. one day
wel dag namnit why cant today be the day! hahaha. I guess it could be becaus ei know what i want and im not going to settle.
Mna this is about to sound so so geeky, however i have been talking to people on the internet recently and although they could be someone completely different i am curiously drawn to one person in particular. Is it weird to find comfort in a stranger? and a stranger you have only spoken to for a couple of hours?
I think it is weird. But then again i am weird so i guess its normal. It definatly is a weird and unusual feeling. Im not having thoughts of "oh i like this guy i wish we could meet and then be together!!" Its just more of a curisity of being drawn to someone you dont know.
Plus the fact he live sin another state, is super hot and well, i just dont think that haha
I spoke to my friend about this and she has the opinion that stranger things have happened which then got me thinking about romance and how it is lacking these days and then the movie You've got mail, then the matrix which made me shut my curtains and then somehow my mind got onto mary poppins. I tend to drift off into other zones... But now to get back on topic.
I'm sitting here at my computer writing this and now im hoping he will come online and make me laugh again. But lets move on from this, im starting to scare myself.
My freind recently met up with a guy and now they are happily inlove. i think it is terrific. he is a really great and will treat her how she deserves to be treated.. and if he doesnt ill stab him.
again this brings me back to being single. Stupid thought patterns. Why can't life just be simple. Why can't we once we turn 18 receive a peice of papare with the name and number of our soul mate? That would be super and incredibly simple. A basic phone call and BOOM a perfect match. Instead of "searching" and getting screwed around. Im over the games, im over the "flings" (not that i was ever into them).
I really want to stop smoking. I have been trying hard and slowly getting there. I was going great until this weekend when an emotional wave threw me butt first into the rocks below. But now im picking up the peices and outting it back together. starting from the inside. If i can't find the edge peices the its no big loss. Its the centre part of the picture that counts.
Why are long distance phone calls so expensive damnit? I fonally got a message from my best friend in the world teeJay, He is in the navy and has been out to sea for the past 8 weeks an di havent been able to talk to him :( so hopefully tonight i can call him without going broke.
i wish the sound on my computer worked.... that would be awesome. unless i just use my mums, but thats too much hard work and she has dial up. Again im rambling.
Just remember people. be straight up about your feelings, even if you think it may scare another person off. be honest and the world will love you. or somthing more poetic then that
Saturday was the first aniversary of my dads death. pretty emotional time. It got me thinking baout relationships and i am sick of the "happy being single" aspect. I mena i am happy with my life but i want someone to share it with. One day they say.. one day
wel dag namnit why cant today be the day! hahaha. I guess it could be becaus ei know what i want and im not going to settle.
Mna this is about to sound so so geeky, however i have been talking to people on the internet recently and although they could be someone completely different i am curiously drawn to one person in particular. Is it weird to find comfort in a stranger? and a stranger you have only spoken to for a couple of hours?
I think it is weird. But then again i am weird so i guess its normal. It definatly is a weird and unusual feeling. Im not having thoughts of "oh i like this guy i wish we could meet and then be together!!" Its just more of a curisity of being drawn to someone you dont know.
Plus the fact he live sin another state, is super hot and well, i just dont think that haha
I spoke to my friend about this and she has the opinion that stranger things have happened which then got me thinking about romance and how it is lacking these days and then the movie You've got mail, then the matrix which made me shut my curtains and then somehow my mind got onto mary poppins. I tend to drift off into other zones... But now to get back on topic.
I'm sitting here at my computer writing this and now im hoping he will come online and make me laugh again. But lets move on from this, im starting to scare myself.
My freind recently met up with a guy and now they are happily inlove. i think it is terrific. he is a really great and will treat her how she deserves to be treated.. and if he doesnt ill stab him.
again this brings me back to being single. Stupid thought patterns. Why can't life just be simple. Why can't we once we turn 18 receive a peice of papare with the name and number of our soul mate? That would be super and incredibly simple. A basic phone call and BOOM a perfect match. Instead of "searching" and getting screwed around. Im over the games, im over the "flings" (not that i was ever into them).
I really want to stop smoking. I have been trying hard and slowly getting there. I was going great until this weekend when an emotional wave threw me butt first into the rocks below. But now im picking up the peices and outting it back together. starting from the inside. If i can't find the edge peices the its no big loss. Its the centre part of the picture that counts.
Why are long distance phone calls so expensive damnit? I fonally got a message from my best friend in the world teeJay, He is in the navy and has been out to sea for the past 8 weeks an di havent been able to talk to him :( so hopefully tonight i can call him without going broke.
i wish the sound on my computer worked.... that would be awesome. unless i just use my mums, but thats too much hard work and she has dial up. Again im rambling.
Just remember people. be straight up about your feelings, even if you think it may scare another person off. be honest and the world will love you. or somthing more poetic then that