meh
so my uncle died saturday... i didnt knwo until yetserday as i was away for a week fishing over yorks.. it was good i had fun.
Yesterday was a weird day. I dont know whats up with me. But i feel pointless, i feel like i am a shodow following someone else, Adjusting to what they want and giving up my own. Yesterday i spent the day watching tv and pretty much only speaking a handful or words. I couldnt stop thinking. Little stupid things going on in my head. I dont get it. Im not normally like this. I will admit, i didnt feel overly supported yesterday but that shouldnt start a chain of pathetic highschool thoughts. Ive been questioning my importance in everyones life. Again feeling like a shadow or 2nd place to many. I visit someone because they ask me to and then i spend my time sitting around doing nothing but waiting for them to pay some form of attention.. I mean im not meaning to sound like and attention seeker, but if you visit someone you would at least expect a response to when you talk. Prolly me just being selfish again.. i should just ignor eit and move on
I hate computers at the moment. They can get fucked, but yet as i sit here being the only one awake im on the comp.... I hate boredom. Yesterday i found twirling a paperclip around my finger for 6 hours entertaining.
Lack of money is pissing me off too.
bah fuck it
i hate adelaide an i want to get out
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSFLGKHGKJGKJGKSJGK:FGFKGF
Yesterday was a weird day. I dont know whats up with me. But i feel pointless, i feel like i am a shodow following someone else, Adjusting to what they want and giving up my own. Yesterday i spent the day watching tv and pretty much only speaking a handful or words. I couldnt stop thinking. Little stupid things going on in my head. I dont get it. Im not normally like this. I will admit, i didnt feel overly supported yesterday but that shouldnt start a chain of pathetic highschool thoughts. Ive been questioning my importance in everyones life. Again feeling like a shadow or 2nd place to many. I visit someone because they ask me to and then i spend my time sitting around doing nothing but waiting for them to pay some form of attention.. I mean im not meaning to sound like and attention seeker, but if you visit someone you would at least expect a response to when you talk. Prolly me just being selfish again.. i should just ignor eit and move on
I hate computers at the moment. They can get fucked, but yet as i sit here being the only one awake im on the comp.... I hate boredom. Yesterday i found twirling a paperclip around my finger for 6 hours entertaining.
Lack of money is pissing me off too.
bah fuck it
i hate adelaide an i want to get out
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSFLGKHGKJGKJGKSJGK:FGFKGF