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So right now im feeling like a watse of space to anyone that has any form of contact in my life.
yeah im feeling sorry for myself... but i dont give a fuck.
I wouldnt give a shit if everythign was ot end right now
I hate not having smokes... cos it always happens... whenever i dont have smokes all the feelings and thought i have made myself :get over" come back to haunt me..
I think i just broke my foot and wrist as i just went ape shit on a box in my room then broke down and cried..... and now i cant stop
i hate prety much everything in my life except for a ocuple of people
and yet i seem to be fuckign that up to
ii think ium stikk trying to deal with teh death of my mates
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i just fuckign hate myself right now and there is noithing i can do to chaneg that. Im struggking to bring myself up from where i am
I have no one around me right now....
but then i ask the question what would they do if they were.. Prolly just tell me to "get over it and cheer up"
it seems to be the only advice they offer
they dont allow me to talk about it
its just kat.. CHEER UP
well im sick of being fuckign cheerful
Im sick of feeling like this
i dont knwo
i am just so angry and i am feeling so violent
i threw my mouse at the wall.. i think thats fucked and now doubt the keyboard will follow suit soon.
i really need a smoke
i really need cash
i need to stop being a pathetic 23 year old who still luve sat home with her parents and has no money and nothing else in life
i seriously have no reason to get out of bed in the monring
during the week the only reason i need to get out of bed is for se straining oin a wednesday night for 5 hours... WOW huge important life. The rest is just filling in time until i die
yeah im feeling sorry for myself... but i dont give a fuck.
I wouldnt give a shit if everythign was ot end right now
I hate not having smokes... cos it always happens... whenever i dont have smokes all the feelings and thought i have made myself :get over" come back to haunt me..
I think i just broke my foot and wrist as i just went ape shit on a box in my room then broke down and cried..... and now i cant stop
i hate prety much everything in my life except for a ocuple of people
and yet i seem to be fuckign that up to
ii think ium stikk trying to deal with teh death of my mates
]
i just fuckign hate myself right now and there is noithing i can do to chaneg that. Im struggking to bring myself up from where i am
I have no one around me right now....
but then i ask the question what would they do if they were.. Prolly just tell me to "get over it and cheer up"
it seems to be the only advice they offer
they dont allow me to talk about it
its just kat.. CHEER UP
well im sick of being fuckign cheerful
Im sick of feeling like this
i dont knwo
i am just so angry and i am feeling so violent
i threw my mouse at the wall.. i think thats fucked and now doubt the keyboard will follow suit soon.
i really need a smoke
i really need cash
i need to stop being a pathetic 23 year old who still luve sat home with her parents and has no money and nothing else in life
i seriously have no reason to get out of bed in the monring
during the week the only reason i need to get out of bed is for se straining oin a wednesday night for 5 hours... WOW huge important life. The rest is just filling in time until i die