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well life is plodding aloing like normal.. same old shit.
i was on the news monday night cos some dickhead drove his car into a house. That was cool
but now things pretty much suck im bored as fuck right now
ive just been talking to an old mate who i havent seen in about 6 years and he is still with the same girlfriend who was my best mate. I think thats great
except now i sit an drealise that i have nothing much at the moment
i mena i have myself which is good.. but that is all.
Last night i was getting masturbation tips from Pixie and Andy.. Although funny at the time, it just really sums up how pitiful things are for me.
Lats night was good. Had calout, then footy training.. which was quite amusing. I got king hit pretty hard.. and nowi am stiff as fuck. Then i went into town with and had coffees and what not then we mooche dat eagle on the hill in pixies new wagon and we had a nice little 3 some and now imthrashed
so right now im sitting listening to music and i normally do waying up the pros and cons of mylife and what i cando with them
i have decided i needmore substance to my life then just superficial happiness.. by that i mean somthing more then passing times. Dont get me wrong. I do enjoy my life. But i want normalty. i want to be able to hold a stable job and i want to be in a relationship where my partner doesnt have to worry about me dieing within so many years.
i knwo it probably sound slike im feeling sorry for myself, and i probably am. But all i have been thinking about latly is sharing my life with someone... companionship, trust safety and being comfortable with another person. it sounds so easy but why do i struggle to find that. Ive had opportunities to in the past.. but when they find out im ill they run, they dont want to deal with it. Which i can understand i mean who would want another burdon on their life
i think i should shut up now
anyways
i was on the news monday night cos some dickhead drove his car into a house. That was cool
but now things pretty much suck im bored as fuck right now
ive just been talking to an old mate who i havent seen in about 6 years and he is still with the same girlfriend who was my best mate. I think thats great
except now i sit an drealise that i have nothing much at the moment
i mena i have myself which is good.. but that is all.
Last night i was getting masturbation tips from Pixie and Andy.. Although funny at the time, it just really sums up how pitiful things are for me.
Lats night was good. Had calout, then footy training.. which was quite amusing. I got king hit pretty hard.. and nowi am stiff as fuck. Then i went into town with and had coffees and what not then we mooche dat eagle on the hill in pixies new wagon and we had a nice little 3 some and now imthrashed
so right now im sitting listening to music and i normally do waying up the pros and cons of mylife and what i cando with them
i have decided i needmore substance to my life then just superficial happiness.. by that i mean somthing more then passing times. Dont get me wrong. I do enjoy my life. But i want normalty. i want to be able to hold a stable job and i want to be in a relationship where my partner doesnt have to worry about me dieing within so many years.
i knwo it probably sound slike im feeling sorry for myself, and i probably am. But all i have been thinking about latly is sharing my life with someone... companionship, trust safety and being comfortable with another person. it sounds so easy but why do i struggle to find that. Ive had opportunities to in the past.. but when they find out im ill they run, they dont want to deal with it. Which i can understand i mean who would want another burdon on their life
i think i should shut up now
anyways