Dec 08, 2006 21:27
I was apprenticed to a God for 32 years.
Be careful what you ask for. I asked for the wisdom of Solomon. The wisdom of God. Which god you ask. hmm, at the time I had thought there was one. You know the Christian one. Supposedly all those names of God are the same one.. UMMM in a word no. El is the Father of the mountain God that has been conflated with the son of the solar God Anu, Ahura Mazda who is not that Him. Ashur, ashur, Sinai, Aah ( not the interogative of understanding yet again.... the father of Tehuti (Thoth))... yep. He has lots of children. I was released 2 years ago.
It was the sink or swim method. I believe I swam. Now can I pull my life to gether to exercise what I have been taught.
Step one, undo the spiritual momentum that kept me tied to Him and to the spiritual egregore that I have built to survive and manage the situations I have been put in.
Stop taking on all the supernatural drama, stop the beacon the energy signature....
I had to dismantle my whole spiritual process. Move from an area where I have had deep connections with, where I physically lived and the spiritual worlds/methods that I have had.
Yep I got to have a normal family life for close to a decade.
I had to live in a place and in environments that were basically supernaturally neutral, but had a current of natural spiritual energy. Atlanta filled the bill.
Build a totally new and different egregore. Oddly enough, work got insaner, where I needed to have some spiritual underpinning to keep me sane, and my family life disintegrated.
Although I have obligations family, and therefore work, I am in a place where I do have a fairly unhindered freedom to my own mind, when there is time.
Is my current egregore building momentum. Is it working well with the natural and other spiritual worlds, yet being distinct. We shall see.
One person thinks so.
I have one student, so far. I am fortunate that he has had a decade of training with yoga and some Wicca. I think he would be a good translator. I tend to teach like a firehose. I better get started while I am young.
My spiritual handle and moniker has been Archonstone. It seems to fit at a lot of different levels. I came up with a name for this movement/church/practice Earth Emissaries for the Ethereal Emmergence. Evolution, excellence and the interest to endure and endeavor.
There is chanting, visualization, breathing and other basic techniques. Principles for daily governance of oneself. The techniques for dynamic balance are taught. It is one thing to live in a monastery. We all work in various difficulties of life. There are techniques for holding on to reality, and keeping one self in balance. As difficult as my life has been, it seems that these methods work fairly well with all things considered. People ask me how do you do it.
Well ask. Be careful what you ask for.