happiness in a bag of skittles

[archirat]

wow. my vacation was EXCELLENT!!!! touring mormon sites and nauvoo and hanging out with family in utah. i am so tired. i've gotten over my home-again-no-one-to-talk-to depression, and guess what! it only lasted a night. i drove so much too. i drove through the night on the Pennslyvania turnpike. it was so ....interesting. but it was really cool. i am getting stronger in my belief and i hope that i will be able to resist certain kinds of temptation better now. of course, it helps that i found that i am liking guys that are across the country or that are preparing for missions. i know now that i want to go on a mission now. seeing all the church historical sites made me want to do the same sort of thing, and all of the nice sister missionaries. it would be nice to be on a language mission, but i don't know. it would be fun all the same. so, for now i'll date, but i don't really want to get serious about anyone. not for now. besides i'll be nineteen or twenty when certain people will be returning from their missions. that's too young to get married....at least, that's what i am beginning to think. there was a time when i thought that getting married young was my purpose. but i still have so much to go and and i have surety that i will be able to go on a mission and come back a better person. wiser and more mature. marriage shouldn't be rushed. i want to be with someone steady and solid, someone who will be willing to help me teach and nurture children in a loving home. someone with a sense of humor to match my own. physical attractiveness would be nice, but i can get used to all different types of attractiveness and i know that a spiritual person is far more appealing.

sorry, got carried away with talking. i like to type too much. anyway i had a great time and i am very happy and very tired. ah.