And So Begins...

[archernx420]

My Exodus - Day 1

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[pellinx420]

You have a much better outlook than I do. No matter what, you always seem to make me laugh. I love the part about the baby diaper. I bet it is nice to have your pc back.

I can't help being sad. I need you so much, I wish you were still here by my side. Oh well. Soon enough you will be back. Actually, it probably won't be soon enough. Anyway, I have to go to work today. This really sucks because I feel like shit. I don't even like my job.

I hate money. Its a pathetic made up monetary system that only exists to fuck up everyones life. If I didn't need money I wouldn't have to keep working a job I hate.

How will I ever get to visit my baby back in GA if I don't have money? So, unfortunately I have to continue my sad existence until I can hold my david again.

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[archernx420]

I'm glad I can still make you laugh, even under these circumstances. I need you in my life too. If I was back soon enough I never would have had to leave. I'm sorry you don't like your job. Maybe you can find one you'd be happier with. I don't want you to suffer on my account. I know money is bullshit, but in these times we can't afford to not have it. I need to finish school so I can get a good job to support you as much as I can no matter what you want to do. Everything will work itself out ok. I know it sucks now, but I would rather do this now than stumble through the rest of my life trying to get by. I want to give you the life you deserve. I want to take you places you want to go. I want so much for our future together. 5 years from now, when we remember back to this time, we will be glad for this, even though it doesn't seem like it now. I love you baby. Everything I do in life is for you, everything. Remember that.

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[pellinx420]

I am just so sad. I don't know what to do with myself. I hope you had fun at holoplankton's even though I know you didn't. I am so jealous of your semi friendly relationship with him. Jealous that you are still friends with him after all this. Sad that you keep telling me he means nothing to you, but I know he does. You always seem to have some excuse for hanging out with him,so I feel like you don't really dislike him at all, you just want to tell me what I want to hear

Your Journal.

[pellinx420]

Are you only writing this for me to read it?

Re: Your Journal.

[pellinx420]

I hope so. I love you.

your cigarettes

[pellinx420]

For every cigareete in your last two packs I would like you to think of a wonderful moment we have had together. this will help you quit. We can do it together. We may be apart, but we can both be supportive. I love you, I know you can quit, I know I can quit, I know we can quit together. I love you and good luck---to both of us.

Re: your cigarettes

[archernx420]

You are the most amazing person I know. Even after all of your own stress you still want to help me with mine. We will quit together. I don't want to die, but if I have to, I want to get as many years with you as I possibly can. I would rather be hooked up to machines and fed through a tube to keep me alive as long as you are in this world. You are my motivation for quitting. There are so many wonderful memories we've made over the years that by the time I think of one to reminisce about while I smoke, the craving will be gone.

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[archernx420]

I am all yours, baby. Even when we are apart, I am always thinking about you. Always. Every waking moment. Goddammit I so wish I could get on the next plane. I'd jump on moving trains to get up to you if I had to. I need your touch, your scent, your smile. I love you so much I feel like my chest is about to go nuclear. You have me in every way possible. You own me, and I give myself willingly, just to be with you. I owe everything to you. Everything good in my life right now is a direct result of you being with me. Words aren't good enough when I try to explain how much I love you. I only wish I could show you.