hmmm...
Well I dont know what happened tonight, i don tknow if she is mad at me or what because she hasnt called and its a holiday i find it really strange...BUt i did some checking about laws and everything and the only thing her dad can do to me is tresspassing and if he is crooked enough plant something in my truck or have someone plant something in my truck for the other cops to find and send my ass to jail with. But i am going to have good faith in the fact that i hope that our little town cops arent that devious and terrible. But i realized alot of things tonight or yesterday or whatever. I do love her because i worry so much when i dont hear from her....Also i did something that i probably wouldnt have done a year ago...i went to a party tonight that i didnt stay at for longer than 20 min....because i felt guilty for being there without her. Plus i really needed to talk to her i could have really use the sound of her voice and comfort to know that i am ok that i didnt fuck up. And the main reason i didnt stay at the party was to make sure i didnt fuck up because i know i have something good and i dont want to be the jerk and asshole that i was a year ago....i promised myself that i would change and i think i just proved it to myself. Thank goddess....I want to give her the world and show it to her as much as i can i want to see her accomplish her dreams and shoot for the moon. And i want to be there when she might fall short so i can support her and watch her hit the stars instead. "Shoot for the moon and even if you fall short you will still hit the stars." But heres a new year for you baby and a better me than what i was before us. Dreaming and Hoping....