[Public. Again. *SIGH*]

[archangelet]

Before I fell through the rift, I had a crush on Xander Harris.

It didn't go away when I got here.

Comments

[isaywe_party]

[ .... she honestly doesn't know how to respond to this one beyond ... ]

Go Xander.

[archangelet]

[ There is a very very long stretch of time between when Buffy commented and when the response comes. There are also a lot of heavily scribbled out lines before the legible bit starts. ]

Yeah, well. Like I'm the first person to ever have a crush on him.

[isaywe_party]

.... You're talking about the boy who attracts demons and bug ladies.

[archangelet]

I guess he's moving up in the world then, since I'm neither.

[isaywe_party]

Exactly! I approve of this step up.

[archangelet]

...uh.

'kay.

[isaywe_party]

[a beat]

Not saying that I know how Xander feels one way or another but ... I think you two might be cute together.

If you're interested in pursuing that at all.

[archangelet]

I, uh. I don't. um.

[locked]

I am kind of fail at making FRIENDS, much less having a boyfriend or something. I wouldn't even know what to DO with one. Anyway, I've got...

It's complicated.

...Fuck. I keep wanting to say shit to you. I was. Back in my Chicago, there was a Buffy. She was pretty much my best friend. So I keep almost saying shit to you and it's weird.

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[isaywe_party]

Oh.

[a beat]

I'm sorry for the weird? I didn't mean to ... further induce the weird by chiming in on this. It's just -- Xander mentions usually get a Buffy to go along with it.

[another beat]

But I'm not opposed to trying to be friends. If that's what you want.

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[archangelet]

I get it. it's cool

I just

yeah.

Um, I wouldn't

I'm just really kind of fucked up and not good at people. just so you know. if you wanna give it a shot. if you don't that's cool though.

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[isaywe_party]

And do you think I'm any better? I carry more weapons than an army and ramble. I'm not even sure most of it is English. Plus I keep weird hours --

Just saying. I'm not one to judge on the bad with people front. In fact, I'm probably right there with you.