Does anyone actually see me?
I'm tired, I'm worn, and I just want it to feel ok. I feel like I talk to people, and but I don't really say anything. I don't know how I really feel except depressed. And I don't know if anyone actually sees that. And yet, ironically I sit here at this desk and smile at every person that goes by. I feel like I'm an annoyance to some friends, and the others I don't know if they can actually see who I am.
Who am I? Who really cares?
I feel needy. It pisses me off. Yet, I don't really want to talk to anyone. Probably why I spill my soul here. In a way I think that's lame but it keeps me from mentally exploding.
I feel like everyone just humors me when they talk to me. I guess I can't figure out why else they'd really associate with me much. I'm boring and awkward. I'm random and annoying all at the same time.
I'm out of shape and unattractive, who would really be interested in me? I just feel shitty. My co-workers, group members, classmates. I feel like they all just put up with me because they have to.
I got back into a new video game. It's something I use to take my mind off of everything. I think it annoys Becky. Sorry.
I'm tired all the time as of late. It sucks, I'm not even that far behind in sleep.
The funny thing is, I'm in one of the biggest institutions in Michigan, surrounded by thousands of people, and I feel so alone. I feel like I can't go anywhere without seeing someone, but no one really sees me. I feel like a ghost.
And this post sounds so fucking emo I might hurl. I should kick my own ass for this one. Don't worry though, I'll put that smile back on soon enough I'm sure even if it kills me.
Who am I? Who really cares?
I feel needy. It pisses me off. Yet, I don't really want to talk to anyone. Probably why I spill my soul here. In a way I think that's lame but it keeps me from mentally exploding.
I feel like everyone just humors me when they talk to me. I guess I can't figure out why else they'd really associate with me much. I'm boring and awkward. I'm random and annoying all at the same time.
I'm out of shape and unattractive, who would really be interested in me? I just feel shitty. My co-workers, group members, classmates. I feel like they all just put up with me because they have to.
I got back into a new video game. It's something I use to take my mind off of everything. I think it annoys Becky. Sorry.
I'm tired all the time as of late. It sucks, I'm not even that far behind in sleep.
The funny thing is, I'm in one of the biggest institutions in Michigan, surrounded by thousands of people, and I feel so alone. I feel like I can't go anywhere without seeing someone, but no one really sees me. I feel like a ghost.
And this post sounds so fucking emo I might hurl. I should kick my own ass for this one. Don't worry though, I'll put that smile back on soon enough I'm sure even if it kills me.