hello
I haven't written in this journal for a while. Lets see, my life consists of mostly school. I'm doing pretty well, im keeping close to a 4.0 gpa, and I've joined a national honor society. I feel pretty accomplished. I'm going to visit UCLA and Cal this spring break to check them out and see which one I would prefer. My philosophy teacher recommended Cal for me, but it would be cool to go to either. Despite hating the work load in my philosophy class, I have come to learn (or to resurface thoughts) about life in general. Yeah, I don't know, that's way too much writing. I haven't checked this thing in ages so I figured I would give a little update. Life, although busy is going alright. I kind of wish I had free time like I did in High School, but then again I don't because free time can be the devil. I still don't have an idea of what I want to major in. It varies from psychology to biology to something involving some form of math (although I would be too behind for that). I have been seeing people around town, and it's weird. People don't even acknowledge you anymore. I smile, but feel stupid because they look away really fast as though I'm some kind of high school virus, haha oh well. Ah, I feel like I'm being pushed through a machine. Probably because I am. It seems that "sane" people are the people who go through it, while others labeled whatever they may be are degenerates "losers" etc. I don't get it anymore, I live for the future? The future might not be what I think it will be, takes me closer to death anyway. Should I live for now? Haha, sometimes I wish i wasn't in school. But I guess that's just stress for my "future job", otherwise I like the knowledge I receive. Socrates was a G, he was smart when he said he didn't know shit, I don't either. Nor do you know anything. Oh well, whoever reads this cool, whoever doesn't doesn't. We're all in the same machine