it really seems unfair but lately i dont care

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I havent written in this thing in ages. It's pretty crazy. Well i dont know what to say? haha hi to the people that read this i guess. Life has been treating me pretty good i guess? I have been working at starbucks since june 05 and i have my classes signed up for merced. I'm getting money saved up. Everyone is leaving in less than a month to go to college which is kind of cool/scary/ahh. I don't know how i will handle it. Kind of freaks me out. I guess i've got accustomed to no school and everything and to working. I'm slowly seeing who my friends really are and who the casual acquaintinces were. I guess it's nice but kind of bad at the same time. I think i study people to such an extent i figure out just about everything about them. I have found 99.99999999999999999% people are greedy, yes if you're reading this that probably means you too. I've learned a lot about relationships and the spirit people put into them. People wonder why they cant trust anyone it's because they don't give their trust up to them. It's so hard to make things work sometimes and it is indeed very hard to find people who aren't greedy. I literally think everyone likes to be in some kind of drama or involved with people who create it amongst themselves. it makes people feel important so i laugh at any person (woman especially) who says they dont want to be involved with it. It gives you your purpose and meaning and you are sad and lost without it. My brain has lost quite a bit of it's potentcy in the creative department. I wonder where it went? I've been listening to dredg lately so maybe that will help. People are extremeley complex yet predictable. I think i have more questions than ever sometimes, i think i have all the answers. Sorry about the weird entry, i dont get it either

If you want to hang out sometime, give me a call...no i dont have a car yet it sucks, im still saving up to get one.