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I think lately, my self confidence level on a scale of 1-10 has been -17. It bugs me, it just does and I know it shouldnt. I want to be better looking, I want that nice white smile with perfect teeth, I want perfect blue eyes, the perfect nose, the nice looking hair. Well hell at least i get complimented on my hair sometimes, but only because girls want my damn hair. I don't get compliments like my friends do, especially some of them. Girls will randomly tell them out of nowhere that they are hot, or good looking or like this or that quality about them, and sometimes the girls are attractive themselves. I just realized how much i want changed about me physically. It literally bugs the shit out of me. I know people say looks dont matter blah blah, but they do and I know this. People don't base everything off of them I know, but it really does help in certain situations to have that big nice white smile or something like that. I guess im just not lucky enough to possess those things. I know it's a dangerous and stupid thing to play with, vanity...but it just bugs me sometimes. It kind of gets old to hear girls tell me that my friends are hot, and to hear nothing about myself. It's not like they're being mean for complimenting my friends but i guess i just want the compliment sometimes. I can automatically think of 3 things i want to change about myself at this very second, i mean yeah they would make me more attractive but still not how i want to be. AGH! WHY! I know they shouldnt matter but they do. !@!@!@!&#(*#)$(#