Indecisions a terrible advesary
Take a step back. What’s wrong?
My chest hurts.
Is it your lungs?
No, it’s my heart. Accompanied by that familiar sickness in my stomanch.
I’m feeling a bit indecisive; I can’t make up my mind about anything. I’ve never felt the complete and utter urge for that bit of companionship so strongly. It’s stressing me just to be in the back of my mind. I’ve got so many unanswered questions…and so many things that just don’t seem right. I feel so cheated and lied to. It’s belittling to a persons self esteem. Mine has been dead a while…Or has it? I still can’t accept these thoughts of wrong doing. I want some closure, its ridiculous to think about.
What girl out there would want to take on the task of being with me? Can anyone even handle being offered actual feelings and comfort? Does everyone have those petty motives and driving forces? Lies to themselves, extended to others, to me. I extend my hand to people and I get a slap on the wrist.
Fuck I’m lost. I can see what’s coming and it doesn’t look appealing.
So help me god.
Wait, can’t turn there.
On my own
My chest hurts.
Is it your lungs?
No, it’s my heart. Accompanied by that familiar sickness in my stomanch.
I’m feeling a bit indecisive; I can’t make up my mind about anything. I’ve never felt the complete and utter urge for that bit of companionship so strongly. It’s stressing me just to be in the back of my mind. I’ve got so many unanswered questions…and so many things that just don’t seem right. I feel so cheated and lied to. It’s belittling to a persons self esteem. Mine has been dead a while…Or has it? I still can’t accept these thoughts of wrong doing. I want some closure, its ridiculous to think about.
What girl out there would want to take on the task of being with me? Can anyone even handle being offered actual feelings and comfort? Does everyone have those petty motives and driving forces? Lies to themselves, extended to others, to me. I extend my hand to people and I get a slap on the wrist.
Fuck I’m lost. I can see what’s coming and it doesn’t look appealing.
So help me god.
Wait, can’t turn there.
On my own