(no subject)
What a mind fuck of a time warp.
Rereading all these post of who I use to be is causing this slight
shift of uncomfortableness of who I am right now.
Reading the depth of my thoughts and words clearly show
the angst I was experiencing, however, today in life I find it
a constant struggle to put in to words how I even feel.
What [thefuck] happened?
I always feared as you grow old, we are forced to disconnect from that inner child.
Not speaking in a sense of immaturity but in the concept of how a child questions
every thought, every emotion and see's the world with innocent rose colored glasses
but knows the underlying true factor of its corruptness.
Ideally, I would love to gain that depth and creativity back.
I'll take all the angst as well if it means seeing the world
a whole different shade then what it is now.
I'm sure no one is on here any more, so I picked a perfect place
to record this journey that i just begun.
Two days ago I began the journey of hormone replacement therapy. (HRT).
Plainly explained, I'm going to reprogram my entire genetic makeup from a biological male
to, I guess you would say, a synthetic female.
I decided to document my progress of this transformation.
Let the journey, begin.
Rereading all these post of who I use to be is causing this slight
shift of uncomfortableness of who I am right now.
Reading the depth of my thoughts and words clearly show
the angst I was experiencing, however, today in life I find it
a constant struggle to put in to words how I even feel.
What [thefuck] happened?
I always feared as you grow old, we are forced to disconnect from that inner child.
Not speaking in a sense of immaturity but in the concept of how a child questions
every thought, every emotion and see's the world with innocent rose colored glasses
but knows the underlying true factor of its corruptness.
Ideally, I would love to gain that depth and creativity back.
I'll take all the angst as well if it means seeing the world
a whole different shade then what it is now.
I'm sure no one is on here any more, so I picked a perfect place
to record this journey that i just begun.
Two days ago I began the journey of hormone replacement therapy. (HRT).
Plainly explained, I'm going to reprogram my entire genetic makeup from a biological male
to, I guess you would say, a synthetic female.
I decided to document my progress of this transformation.
Let the journey, begin.