I almost made it a week...
...with that happy-new-year-smell. I'm listening to Julian Plenti -the solo project of Interpol's lead guy, who is not called Julian Plenti, whatever- and allowing him to slowly drag me further into bummerland.
I guess I don't really have a reason to be bummed. Last night I tried to sit down and write for a while but ended up reading Sentinel fanfic instead, and not even new fanfic, you know? just went straight for my favorite stories that are angsty and weepy and deliciously h/c. It's kind of sad, though, I am always scouting for plots for S/B stories and the Sentinel fiction is so.. nghh, it breaks my heart, and it's just one of those things I could never write for S/B and I kind of wish I could, if just because I like writing weepy stupid stuff even if it's self indulgent, I don't care. But then The Sentinel fandom is awfully intimidating, and just, it's.. so.. consolidated, I don't know, I just don't think I could write for it. Which is probably for the best, weepy angst is something that probably should stay inside my head instead of embarrassing me publicly.
I had an awful night last night, I went to bed at 2 and had one of those light sleep nights where it feels like you haven't slept at all and next thing I know it's dawn. Nghh. I will try to cheer up during the day because I really ought to not let myself get bummed out of nothing.
Good thing it's new comics day, at least.
If you are looking for a good tune to be sad about, I highly recommend Julian Plenti, though! I love 'No chance survival' and 'H'. Both very much excellent.
That is all.
I guess I don't really have a reason to be bummed. Last night I tried to sit down and write for a while but ended up reading Sentinel fanfic instead, and not even new fanfic, you know? just went straight for my favorite stories that are angsty and weepy and deliciously h/c. It's kind of sad, though, I am always scouting for plots for S/B stories and the Sentinel fiction is so.. nghh, it breaks my heart, and it's just one of those things I could never write for S/B and I kind of wish I could, if just because I like writing weepy stupid stuff even if it's self indulgent, I don't care. But then The Sentinel fandom is awfully intimidating, and just, it's.. so.. consolidated, I don't know, I just don't think I could write for it. Which is probably for the best, weepy angst is something that probably should stay inside my head instead of embarrassing me publicly.
I had an awful night last night, I went to bed at 2 and had one of those light sleep nights where it feels like you haven't slept at all and next thing I know it's dawn. Nghh. I will try to cheer up during the day because I really ought to not let myself get bummed out of nothing.
Good thing it's new comics day, at least.
If you are looking for a good tune to be sad about, I highly recommend Julian Plenti, though! I love 'No chance survival' and 'H'. Both very much excellent.
That is all.