These Loose Ends
It’s amazing after all this time I am still struggling with loose ends.
It’s becoming so bad that one little sentence was a link to a memory- a memory that I didn’t even care about before- that triggered a sudden abruption inside of me. I found myself, once again, cracking into loud, heavy, down-right hysterical laughter. And then I am on the brink of tears, which I’m still not sure what emotion was causing them.
I am much better, but still far from my best. It comes and goes like a haunting dark cloud, blocking out any confidince I had once before. I hate this. I wish there was some simple way to be rid of all of this crap.