well, where to start.
well, so everyhing happend scince my last post. Tybee and i have fallen in love. Its real, im not dreaming about it or anything. well, i still i am dreaming about it but its real too. Im just so elated to be with her. She is everything i am looking for rght now. And im not dating her because i can find anything wrong with her, but its just such a relief to know that shes got everything there. After 5 months of trying i can finally say she's mine. And im damn proud of her. Im not even worride about the distance thing right now, im not worried at all about finding anyone else, and im not interested. Tybee's who i want. Thats been true for quite awhile. Im glad i can finally be with her. Saying good bye was hard, cause i had to do it 2wice. When she cries i cry. thats how it works, i was worried about not being able to cry when we were saying goodbye, but when it came to to say goodbye it just came on its own. When she cries its the saddest thing ever, and it hits me hard. I snapped at her because she kept on me about writing this lj today, and she started crying because of it. And i was so sorry for doing it, because she just wants to know whats going on with me. And she just wants to talk to me and shes hurting in talla just like im hurting here. So i feel bad about that. But neways, tybee dikin is the one for me.
And know i am in college, @ nc state. After the whole ordeal about getting in at all, and all the help from mrs. little, and after all the hassle about moving in and all the help from my momma its just nice to finally actuall be here. Im not in limbo anymore, i have a place to stay. I have a home again so now i can get a grip and really look how things are going. And my computer is finally completely operational. So rok out on that. But i have to thank my mother for everything. That woman is a saint. She's devoted the last 18 years of her life, everyday of it, to me and maybe a little to my brother. That woman is the most important person in the world to me and i cant tel her how much she means to me. She started crying in my arms when she left me. It was more than i could handle because at that tim we both knew exactly how we felt. My eyes are tearing up about it, cause i love her so much. I love my mom.
Neways classes begin next wednesday and im excited,im in the college i need to go get books tomorrow and start getting ready for classes. I need to see if i can get into my religion 471 class. Im just exctied about getting started with being on my own. I fucking made it you know? And i did all this on my own, i mean my parents are paying, but i got in on my own and i did all my class stuff alone and band stuff and im being responsible and eating well and getting shit done. Im just excited about life right now. With tybee, and on my own out here with lucas and all my friends and stuff. Tybee comes up in a little under 3 weeks to visit me. Shes goin to be here for my first game, its going to be me 50,000 fans and tybee. Iv'e never marched in front of such a giant crowd. there was 19000 at troy state, but that dosent even compare.And im so excited to have her come up and see me doing everything that i do. Its going to be a blast. Shes going to have to hang out with marie because ryan is in the band wit me now. thats going to be awesome. AND laura scheduled eo events around so i can go during marching season. everything is just comming together. I cant wait to see tybee, this is going to sound funny, but i want to show her of. be like yea bitches. this is my girl and shes awesome and fine. i still cant believ i got her.
Well i think thats about everything i can say, i hope im not forgeting anything important, but if i am, ill post it.
Ju know who dis be.
And know i am in college, @ nc state. After the whole ordeal about getting in at all, and all the help from mrs. little, and after all the hassle about moving in and all the help from my momma its just nice to finally actuall be here. Im not in limbo anymore, i have a place to stay. I have a home again so now i can get a grip and really look how things are going. And my computer is finally completely operational. So rok out on that. But i have to thank my mother for everything. That woman is a saint. She's devoted the last 18 years of her life, everyday of it, to me and maybe a little to my brother. That woman is the most important person in the world to me and i cant tel her how much she means to me. She started crying in my arms when she left me. It was more than i could handle because at that tim we both knew exactly how we felt. My eyes are tearing up about it, cause i love her so much. I love my mom.
Neways classes begin next wednesday and im excited,im in the college i need to go get books tomorrow and start getting ready for classes. I need to see if i can get into my religion 471 class. Im just exctied about getting started with being on my own. I fucking made it you know? And i did all this on my own, i mean my parents are paying, but i got in on my own and i did all my class stuff alone and band stuff and im being responsible and eating well and getting shit done. Im just excited about life right now. With tybee, and on my own out here with lucas and all my friends and stuff. Tybee comes up in a little under 3 weeks to visit me. Shes goin to be here for my first game, its going to be me 50,000 fans and tybee. Iv'e never marched in front of such a giant crowd. there was 19000 at troy state, but that dosent even compare.And im so excited to have her come up and see me doing everything that i do. Its going to be a blast. Shes going to have to hang out with marie because ryan is in the band wit me now. thats going to be awesome. AND laura scheduled eo events around so i can go during marching season. everything is just comming together. I cant wait to see tybee, this is going to sound funny, but i want to show her of. be like yea bitches. this is my girl and shes awesome and fine. i still cant believ i got her.
Well i think thats about everything i can say, i hope im not forgeting anything important, but if i am, ill post it.
Ju know who dis be.