#152: sparks
Self love is so important. Because when you’re all alone and it’s 3 in the morning
and you’re lying on the floor crying and shaking and wishing it all would end,
who’s going to be there for you? You. You have to pick yourself up and find the strength to carry on.
At the end of the day, you’re all you’ve got.
TIme for a short update!!
Unlike last year, I didn't participate any social camps this year as a facilitator cause I feel that I'm getting too old for all these rahrah-ness (though ironically im the same age as most of the male incoming freshies LOL...) But anyway, this means I have more time for work!! Initially decided to get either an internship or part time job, but was lazier compared to my peers in sending out resumes so I didn't manage to get any internships this summer break though I did managed to get a part time job as a Cooking Studio Assistant (more of receptionist and prepping ingredients kind of gurl), so since school will be starting in a few weeks' time, I'm trying to earn and save up as much as I can. It's also really tough getting tuition jobs lol idg how my friends can juggle 3-4 when I barely got one... It's also cause I'm picky la HAHA
As mentioned previously, I really wanted a getaway.. so what was originally planned to be a short getaway to Austraila or Bali or Batam was eventually reduced to a day (food) trip to JB. But its ok, its the company that matters!! Haven't been seeing my babes for so long... can't wait to see them this coming Saturday for the trip:)
Was offered a vacant slot to Lund University in Sweden for Y3S2 a week ago or so, but eventually rejected it. The main concern is living expenses which can go as high as 10k-15k and this would mean scrimping and saving for a very very long time... for the next semester, the exchange period in Sweden and even post-exchange... Ah well... This also means more opportunities to try to improve my dance in Singapore, what with the upcoming CAC+US in February. I'm also currently part of the R Recital 2015 for Mel's Waacking item!! So so thankful to her for even choosing and believing in me cause I believe there's definitely more experienced waackers who can perform her item better :') Gotta get them heels and start practicing in them soon!!
In short, I'm just glad I didn't spend my summer lazing around. True, I can't get much useful experience for my future career path, but at least I'm earning my keep and doing what I love (dance). Had some pretty bad days recently but here's to better days ahead!!
xo.