#147: refresh
Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever gonna switch to Blogger again. Hmm... Probably not this year ahahaha.
Anyway.
School started 2 weeks ago and I'm still adjusting. It was pretty bad, considering I'm busy with dance practices and party planning I hadn't gave school much thought. Not forgetting my horrid results last semester I honestly don't know how long I can keep going, keep being this optimistic that life will get better, that it wasn't a mistake to get into university, or to even pursue a junior college education in the first place. But I'm just gonna keep holding on to this strand of hope that it wasn't all that bad. Good things did occurred over the past few years. Among many small defining moments, I met wonderful people, I found passions in areas I never thought I would. I got out of my comfort zone and was no longer that invisible girl, that immensely socially awkward girl people avoids, that wallflower no one bothers to look for.
Because everything is built on happenstance.
And I am grateful for where I am now. Yes maybe even academically. Maybe not being offered a slot for exchange is the chance for me to spend more time with my family. Having stayed home after a year of hall for the last semester made me value my family a lot more. I guess that's what happens when you mature; you notice the ever-increasing strands of grey and wrinkles, you value and understand their kind intentions beneath their scoldings, naggings. Things you never care for as a teenager.
On to less gloomy stuff!!
I went for Junko and Nishi's waacking workshop with Nic despite mia-ing for waacking open classes at Mel's for the past few weeks due to CAC+us practices but omggg my passion for waacking just gotten bigger. I even, unwillingly, took part in this 'cat war' cypher-like thing with another (zai) waacker (who I don't know at all) in front of all the other skilled waackers ok I must have looked like a joke :'( But Nic said what I did was a legit cypher so thankfully it wasn't that baddd?? I hope... Ah well what's done is done. Hope to only get better from here:)
CAC+us '15 is happening in a few weeks' time and I'm pretty psyched for it hehe my family will be coming down to watch though I'm only in 1/2 of the item... But this CAC+us event was always more for the juniors anyway!! I hope it'll be a memorable experience for them like it was for me:)
Lastly, having been to Sherie's and Gilda's birthday parties, both of which had their own unique elements, whereas I had only just decided on my theme few days ago lol, I am abit behind time. Gotta get the catering settled soon cause it's probably the peak period since it's just before CNY and decorations decided and ordered and that takes time too oh no good luck to me guys :<
me basically