#139: no wind in our sails
Today is one of those 'meh' kind of day.
I've been in some sort of moodswings for the past few days to which I blame it on my period. #fthormones Interpersonal skills already reaching a new low as a result. So many things on my mind:
Dance. Like, yeah I get that I'm slower and more inflexible at times, and I have a lot to work on (and really blessed to have so many kind souls helping me out) but its still depressing to fail/see little success from my point of view. People told me that I had improved, but not to my desired extent. Yes I get that any improvement is still an improvement and I actually am trying to live by this 'dance to be better than yesterday' line but today is simply one of those melancholy kind of day where such small leaps in skills amount to almost nothing to me right now. Studies-wise, try as I might, I will at most be that (hopefully) painfully average kid. I can only fervently pray that I will not be those who help to cushion the bell curve. As for relationships, I'm still a blob of mess; as undesirable as ever and still still still regretting over lost opportunities.