#071: La la.
Hi. There's 52 days to A levels, just saying. HAHA.
K so I'm in the midst of Prelims. And this has been the toughest week yet, like a rollercoaster ride. For this rollercoaster ride, you got yourself a free ticket to it, no, its not compulsory, you can withdraw any time with a doctor's MC. You started off at a relatively high level off ground. For me, the rollercoaster moves up gradually and steadily, during the GP paper 1. After the paper, I felt a whole lot better seeing that this is the most points I've ever written. But still, quality over quantity and I can only hope for the best. During GP paper 2 however, things began going downhill. The summary itself was hard and so were the questions, such that I barely had time for AQ. Didn't even write an EV for my one and only point. Sigh. So disappointed in myself and bad for Mr Tan. He's such a nice and good GP tutor. :/ I blamed this on my (extremely horrible) poor time management. And this is just the tip of what's about to come.
The rollercoaster is still at a relatively higher position from the ground as compared to before it started. I mean, it's only GP~~~ hahaha and the next paper is Chemistry which I began to adore ever since I dropped it to H1. Imagine how crushed I felt when I realised I could barely score 5/20 for my second essay qn, which consisted of Kinetics and Org Chem. The last option was actually Periodic Table and Org Chem I supposed, which was what I usually would opt to do but decided to choose otherwise this time mainly because Periodic Table = Writing a whole paragraph to get 2m and I wanted to try Kinetics since it seemed easier, like y'know, just a few equations and statements. But I wasn't sure about Kinetics till the exam day at 0830 hahaha when I met Ms Li to clarify my doubts. She's really really nice and I'm so glad to have dropped to H1 to have her as my Chem tutor :)) But well, the downside for that consultation would be having to go school that early when the paper's in the afternoon. Studied with Zhan Xuan and Tristan after the consultation till like 12plus when I started panicking like wtf why my heart beating so fast when I feel that I'll do alright omg calm down yt calm down why are you panicking when your H2 friends aint. So Yi Mei and I walked one round round the canteen and yeah felt slightly better. But the steps up to the fourth level for the H1 paper alone was enough to make me more restless. Sigh. Poor time management indeed. The rollercoaster just went wooshed all the way down, killing all hopes and mood for any upcoming exams. Bloody hell.
With Chem being a mood killer, and less than 12 hours to the next paper, which is doomsday ok, where I had to take Econs P1 and Bio P2. Sigh. Can't bring myself to study so I'm mainly just zoning out at home. Slightly more confident for bio as I actually studied some parts that I didn't previously before and did recap for some. Fyi, I'm a pretty lazy person when it comes to recapping stuff, resulting in the massive outflow of marks T.T Didn't finish Econs P1 and don't really understand 1/3 of the questions, like what are they asking for. But I wasn't hoping to do well for Econs so the rollercoaster just went down a little, few feet off the ground. Then there's bio. Joke of the week. 7 structured questions and 3 additional essays wtf how can I finish in 2 hours when I barely finished 2 structured in 1/2 hr? Should have used Nic How's method of doing the essays first hmm. Cause essays are just a spammage of what you memorised while for structured, we have to adapt accordingly. Although the Men Gen qn was supposedly to help us gain easy marks, but its very tedious and took up a lot of time and I could have completed that damn qn if it wasn't for time constraint. Pretty much screwed for Bio. Watched as the rollercoaster went beneath the ground like how is that possible.
Till this point, I've gotten tired of elaborating and stuff. So things are gonna get brief from now on. For math, lost quite a bit of marks and let's just hope I overestimated the amount of marks that I would lose. The paper itself was doable if I did more practice and differential equations was never my thing. Got to brush up on that. For today's bio P3. Just as screwed as for P2. Except that the compulsory essay questions were on what I memorised, thank goodness no essay qns on GMO which I didn't touch at all. Panicked the night before and it was the worst night ever in my JC life. It's only then do I realise that I can only rely on myself.
So glad the week's almost over. Gonna brush up on my math and econs oh yes then I'm left with MCQs which I cannot be complacent about because complacency in MCQs is what caused my Physics to obtain a B3 in O levels which resulted in me choosing Biology over Physics resulting in the inhumane treatment to my tiny brain by forcing it to take in and retain excessive amounts of information that will be of absolutely no use in a few months' time.
4 more papers. I can do this. All the best everyone in whatever you do!
xo.
-Lauren Oliver, Delirium
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