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I'm sort of having a life crisis at the moment. It is multi-layered like an onion of anxiety and covers all the facets of my life. However with the soul crushing and personality sapping anxiety come the ability to fixate on ideas and things around me for a distraction.
So my current fixation is two part. the first part is on Stardew Valley, a farming sim that I have sunk about 25 hours into right now. not super productive on my part.
The second part of this is thinking about and weaving together ideas that could someday turn into a thesis that I may write if I stick to a literature track with my higher education.
I'm trying to gather my ideas together into what my specific thesis would be. I know I want to deal with queer representation in modern YA literature and it's impact on students identities and empathy for those that are different from them. I want it to have an educational leaning and maybe look into the history of representation? Basically I want to write a conglomerate of my degree focuses with the queer spin on it SINCE THIS IS A RELEVANT TOPIC TO ME.
I want to use The Raven Cycle as part of my literature side of the research as I think that has a really well developed coming out story as a side plot to a bigger narrative that feels genuine even if the writing is a little funky and clunky in parts. I need to pick further stories to use though. I know at one time I had another book earmarked for this project BUT THE BOOK ESCAPES ME AT THIS TIME because I actually have a brain of swiss cheese and all my ideas leak out when I'm not looking. But that is where I am now. I GET AN EXCUSE TO RE-READ AND ANNOTATE THINGS THOUGH.
So my current fixation is two part. the first part is on Stardew Valley, a farming sim that I have sunk about 25 hours into right now. not super productive on my part.
The second part of this is thinking about and weaving together ideas that could someday turn into a thesis that I may write if I stick to a literature track with my higher education.
I'm trying to gather my ideas together into what my specific thesis would be. I know I want to deal with queer representation in modern YA literature and it's impact on students identities and empathy for those that are different from them. I want it to have an educational leaning and maybe look into the history of representation? Basically I want to write a conglomerate of my degree focuses with the queer spin on it SINCE THIS IS A RELEVANT TOPIC TO ME.
I want to use The Raven Cycle as part of my literature side of the research as I think that has a really well developed coming out story as a side plot to a bigger narrative that feels genuine even if the writing is a little funky and clunky in parts. I need to pick further stories to use though. I know at one time I had another book earmarked for this project BUT THE BOOK ESCAPES ME AT THIS TIME because I actually have a brain of swiss cheese and all my ideas leak out when I'm not looking. But that is where I am now. I GET AN EXCUSE TO RE-READ AND ANNOTATE THINGS THOUGH.