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*sigh* I'm on the "wrong" sleep schedule again. I'm supposed to be up in the morning to run a gazillion errands with mom, only one of which really benefits me. And she wants *me* to wake her up. and I can't sleep. Was just lying there restless. It's nice to be done with school. I'm happy about that, but then I have to be responsible for my grandmother this week while mom is gone. and this means making descisions. For her health, or at least postponing the docs while I try to check with mom. Which, as I realized tonight, means if I don't have a drink or 6 tomorrow night, means I can't responsibly have one for another week. and I've really been wanting a drink or 3 in the name of stress relief. Way too much going on. I still wish I could talk to my brother. It would help. Bah. I've wanted that, for one reason or another, since march... it's august. I'm gonna have to give up, if i can, for a while about the whole talking to him thing.... it's not like it's likely to happen soon. I'm gonna have to learn how to grow up, to be independant just as I have been. And I don't know what it is I'm suppose d to do. it seems like there is something expected of me, but what I am not sure..