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And so the years of the Phantom continue to pass, here it is, 2 and a half hours until my 17th year on this tiny planet you like to refer to as earth, and so far it could be worse, I believe the 13th year was the one I will miss the least, and 16 was a tad bit crapola as well, in fact I hated it, but it did set up something’s to make this at least a good start on 17. I believe I have finally come to realize that shit does just happen, There comes a time in everyone’s life when you question the meaning of it all, why you where born, why everything sucks so fucking bad, why nobody likes you, why you look the way you do. The most common of these questions is Why did this happen or why did this happen to me, Sometimes there are no explanations, and most of the time there is no reason, but there has to be pain in order to have happiness, and sacrifices must be made, even if you would rather live in a world of shadow and suffering just to have that certain thing back in the world, alive and happy, it doesn’t always go your way. Maybe there is a reason, maybe if that thing never did fade away, you would both die before your expiration date and cause more chaos then you could imagine, but sometimes bad things just happen for no reason what so ever, even if you or the other party don’t deserve what you have to go through, But, that just so happens to be the way life seems to be, a cruel, cold hearted bitch, most of the time anyway, there are something’s, sometimes, when you are happy you are alive, those moments that you catch yourself smiling because of someone, or days that are just beautiful to miss. Or just little things, like your cat that you love with all of your heart, those certain days that you are just thankful for every kiss, every beat your heart has skipped, no matter how fucked up your life has been, everyone has at least one day that was to perfect to miss. On with this, away from that sappy little whatever, I just wanted to thank everyone who has ever been in my life, friend or foe, dead or alive, with out you I would be nothing, as hard as all of this was, for the past almost 4 years, I still wont say it was worth it, but I will say I am glad I made it this far, because if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have had this 8 year relationship with my best friend who has made me half of what I am, without her, I would be nothing, I wouldn’t have met all of the friends I have today, like Sam, Mikey, Curtis, Alex, Adam and Steve who have made the whole puzzle complete. This is probably the only optimistic thing you will see me write for the rest of the year, and this is the end of it.
Happy Birthday Me.
Much love,
~Anna.
Happy Birthday Me.
Much love,
~Anna.