Growing up in isolation.

[arcanallama]

I seem to be in a rather niche section of the MSPA fandom, I tend to gravitate toward godly or Intermission characters for things like Rping and fanart, I really haven't thought about it much until now.

The fact I like to Rp as them probably is unsettling and does speak of something rather fucked in my head.  I tend to play them in a sympathetic

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[leafing]

I will never ever ever understand racial cliques. I guess it's probably because I grew up with no sense of racial identity because it wasn't until a few months ago that my family found out some of our ancestry. But it took so long to establish that sort of concept, my brain just filled in the blank when I was a kid by basically saying, well no shit everyone has different features and skin colors, if they didn't nobody would be able to tell each other apart.

It also helped that my best friend was from India and adopted by white parents (I had no idea she was adopted) so until I learned about genetics I just thought children were totally random.

Either way I can sorta understand being isolated to some extent. I was pretty awkward in elementary and middle school, evened out (I think?) during highschool (via being a hero of the theater group), then was a freak again. In elementary school I was more interested in playing with trees and bugs than other kids, which is... Pretty much the way I am now.

Then I pretty much slept through highschool but when I was awake I was pretty popular among the weirdo artsy crowd.

Pretty much everything depends on how you look at it. I pretty much just consider myself to be a freak, so I find other people's behavior (no matter how deplorable, to some extent) "proper" and mine abnormal in a bad way. Chances are I don't know shit about most cultures or really much of anything you're referring to here, but it's a goal of mine to cause as little harm as possible in my lifetime. I think I'm okay at it despite being ignorant as a brick.

[arcanallama]

Hahaha yeah.

Though it sucks to be doing something you think is ok and everyone else looks at you and tells you it's rude, and you're like "whut?".