Whats a beautiful Saturday.
a lovely day, if at least weather-wise, to my week of holidays.
Nothing exceptional has happenned thus far, and thats super-duper as far as i'm concerned, it can actually STAY that way & that'd be cool too, tho i can't shake this constant nagging forever on my brain that any minute the phone's ganna ring. And despite ALWAYS cringing at the sound of a ringing phone, i'm dreading it even more lately as i fear its ganna be my mom with some new crisis immidiately followed by a complete breakdown. if she could be at all reasonable, or even remotely rational, i could handle it but she's far from either.
don't get me wrong-i'm not trying to minimize her situation. it IS pretty dire. I understand her desperation. But at the same time, i too am anguished as i just don't have the answers for her. Plus anything i DO say is equivelant to hitting yourself in the head with a hammer because she doesn't hear it. none of it is what she WANTS to hear, so from her perspective, no one is understanding her.
i dunno, but i'm just about at a loss. & yet any minute, the phone might ring..............putting me forever on edge.
Currently, Samantha is at the theatre just a 2 minute walk from our house, watching The Secretariot with a friend. Her friend has her mothers cell phone & will call her when the movie's over then they'll drop Samantha off here. I'm sure tho they'll be playing a few arcade-type games located in the lobby area afterwards tho BEFORE calling her mom. lol
i too was invited to see a movie with some friends from work-tho it'll be the late show this evening. They're all going to see The Town. i wouldn't mind that at all--tho i would love it if me and Gord could go together. can't remember the last time we did. we just don't get the opertunity to go out. Period. We just wouldn't know a babysitter if we tripped over one. lol how sad is that? Anyway-that being said tho-come hell or highwater, we WILL be attending gords workplaces Christmas party on november 19th. Somehow, someway, i will find a sitter. i got a month to do it. lol I'll put the word out at work-see if anyone there i know could use an extra $50 bucks!
Anyhoo--i must tend to Lindsays speghetti....
Nothing exceptional has happenned thus far, and thats super-duper as far as i'm concerned, it can actually STAY that way & that'd be cool too, tho i can't shake this constant nagging forever on my brain that any minute the phone's ganna ring. And despite ALWAYS cringing at the sound of a ringing phone, i'm dreading it even more lately as i fear its ganna be my mom with some new crisis immidiately followed by a complete breakdown. if she could be at all reasonable, or even remotely rational, i could handle it but she's far from either.
don't get me wrong-i'm not trying to minimize her situation. it IS pretty dire. I understand her desperation. But at the same time, i too am anguished as i just don't have the answers for her. Plus anything i DO say is equivelant to hitting yourself in the head with a hammer because she doesn't hear it. none of it is what she WANTS to hear, so from her perspective, no one is understanding her.
i dunno, but i'm just about at a loss. & yet any minute, the phone might ring..............putting me forever on edge.
Currently, Samantha is at the theatre just a 2 minute walk from our house, watching The Secretariot with a friend. Her friend has her mothers cell phone & will call her when the movie's over then they'll drop Samantha off here. I'm sure tho they'll be playing a few arcade-type games located in the lobby area afterwards tho BEFORE calling her mom. lol
i too was invited to see a movie with some friends from work-tho it'll be the late show this evening. They're all going to see The Town. i wouldn't mind that at all--tho i would love it if me and Gord could go together. can't remember the last time we did. we just don't get the opertunity to go out. Period. We just wouldn't know a babysitter if we tripped over one. lol how sad is that? Anyway-that being said tho-come hell or highwater, we WILL be attending gords workplaces Christmas party on november 19th. Somehow, someway, i will find a sitter. i got a month to do it. lol I'll put the word out at work-see if anyone there i know could use an extra $50 bucks!
Anyhoo--i must tend to Lindsays speghetti....