missing communication
I know people will come and go in your life and if you're lucky a few will stick for good, but why can't I be the one to choose who stays? I feel as though as soon as I really like someone then, poof, they are out of my life. I mean, there are people with life-long friends all the time. I have one maybe two people I could think of as such and a few others that I wish would come back into my life. Each friend is unique and I mesh differently with them so when one aspect of friendship is gone I miss it terribly. I feel like I'm not allowed to have it back, or that the friend doesn't want me back. I know I made mistakes in the past, but everyone does, and when you find a person who is completely different from everyone else and understands you more than you're willing to admit, why aren't you allowed to keep them forever?