I feel like someone has hit me in the face with a brick. And then I realized that it was me.
Ok so. I am a bastard. There have been times when this has been pointed out to me before. I just never really got it so much until now. Also... i think this ais a new kind of asshole that i am. new in that I wasn't born with it and I didn't know that I was it until now. But asshole I am. Part of me REALLY hates me right now. i can't get over it. I will. All i can do is try not to be one anymore. Oh god. I thought i was a good guy. I'm not though. I have sinned before the face of my god and against the people I love most. I am without.
I haven't given up hope, because that's just not something i do... and I am going to wake up tomorrow and try not to be an asshole.
Oh god this hurts. If you wanna do me a favor, then next time you see me, and everytime you see me after that until you don't want to anymore or until you think I am better, tell me: "You are an asshole(or some equivalent term) and you should stop."
Please.
i am so sorry that I ave been bad. i am so sorry.