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I dont know what to do.. Ya know.. Things are so hard for me.. i cant get threw this... i want it to be back to normal.. i dont care what that means.. but i will do what it takes.. this really sucks to no end.. I am so afraid.. all my friends keep telling me.. you will find someone new... or things will get better.. But im afraid to get my heart broken again.. its been broken so manytimes.. i cant take it anymore.. I dont want to take the chance..
Why go out there just to come back with your heart riped out.. that doesnt seem like something i would like to do.. I know someday... Maybe.. I just miss him to no end.. and im suck in a 2 year plan with him.. and NOONE i know is on sprint.. so how does this work for me.. I cant go on and on .. i know i cant keep going back to him.. and talkin about the past.. if we are gonna talk it shouldnt be about what happend.. but about what is gonna happen.. My life is just falling to no end.. and i cant do anything about it.. it sucks. I just need a fresh start.. I wish i can just have a restart button so i can always start over new. I cant wait to go to collage.. iw ill have a fresh start.. no one will know my history.. and that will be awesome.. make new friends.. (not saying my old ones are bad...) but there is no such things about having to many friends.. I need to get out.. I need to keep busy.. so i wont sit around thinking about him...
so today im goning back to work.. YAY!. and then possably say at Jennis.. then go to school tommarow.. woo woo..
I cant wait to go to texas.. it will be AWESOME.. i miss my cusin.. she is awesome.. <3
well this is all.
I want to thank all my friends who are suporting me. and trying to help me threw this.. you guys are the best.. and i love you forever..
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Johnnie
Why go out there just to come back with your heart riped out.. that doesnt seem like something i would like to do.. I know someday... Maybe.. I just miss him to no end.. and im suck in a 2 year plan with him.. and NOONE i know is on sprint.. so how does this work for me.. I cant go on and on .. i know i cant keep going back to him.. and talkin about the past.. if we are gonna talk it shouldnt be about what happend.. but about what is gonna happen.. My life is just falling to no end.. and i cant do anything about it.. it sucks. I just need a fresh start.. I wish i can just have a restart button so i can always start over new. I cant wait to go to collage.. iw ill have a fresh start.. no one will know my history.. and that will be awesome.. make new friends.. (not saying my old ones are bad...) but there is no such things about having to many friends.. I need to get out.. I need to keep busy.. so i wont sit around thinking about him...
so today im goning back to work.. YAY!. and then possably say at Jennis.. then go to school tommarow.. woo woo..
I cant wait to go to texas.. it will be AWESOME.. i miss my cusin.. she is awesome.. <3
well this is all.
I want to thank all my friends who are suporting me. and trying to help me threw this.. you guys are the best.. and i love you forever..
<333333
Johnnie